I have spent quite a lot of time this week in quiet reflection; in between writing and preparing for my new projects. Since the beginning of the year, a lot has happened in such a short space of time.
In England we have been experiencing some bad storms; high speed winds whipping around the streets, trees coming down, flooding… The wailing sound of the wind can be quite frightening.
In the past I would have just put music on to try and cover the disconcerting noise, but I felt the strong need to be still, when things around me felt like they were in chaos. The streets surrounding my house were quiet, no human sounds could be heard, and all I could hear was the wind.
I prayerfully spent time listening to the detail of the wind, and what came to my mind was how the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words. Tears gently flowed from my eyes as I felt God speak deeply into my heart. The wailing noise wasn’t just the wind itself, but the Holy Spirit groaning.
‘And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness.
For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for.
But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words.’
Romans 8:26 NLT
God speaks to me through a number of ways such as through the beauty of nature, and as I search for Him, I like to make sure I’m not missing anything He wants to show me. I am so thankful now that I didn’t cover the uncomfortable noise with music, but chose instead to really listen, even though it was painful.
My heart for the hurting and for the lost is growing by the day, and I feel such urgency in my spirit that we cannot afford to not fully listen to what God is calling us to.
I am going to spend more time reflecting on what God showed me this past week. I feel there is more that He wants to reveal to me, about this, as it was a spiritual growing moment, of just being with God and removing the distractions of the world.
As well as this experience, I have also felt the full force of attack from the fiery arrows of the enemy. Even in this I am choosing to be thankful, because the truth is there is nothing to fear, as this just means that God’s enemy is scared; he wants our attention to be moved away from God’s plan; for our focus to be on the problems of living in this world. We just have to hold more tightly to our Victory.
If you are in a place of ‘no words’, please know that the Holy Spirit is interceding on your behalf. When we are not sure how to express what we feel deep inside, we don’t need to worry about it; fumbling around for words to share with the One who knows us the most. We are assured that deep connection between our spirit and God, the important part is to listen to Him.
What are you thankful for this week?
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